Today we treasured a few hours with a Treasure — baby Janessa! It’s such a delight to see her defying the odds and statistics and growing bit by bit! Heart-warming to see Elianna’s love for her tiny cousin. I’m so glad we get to spend time with her again!
Lately I’ve been savoring my evening walks at work with various seniors who need to get out but have no one to walk with them. It’s hard to slow down to their pace (or to the pace of my 2 year old at home!). But after I’ve slowed, I start to notice the robins hopping around under the trees, and the new roses planted this spring, and all the flowers that are still in bloom, in spite of the cooler night temperatures. I notice the blueness of the sky, and how some leaves are already starting to turn. The warmth of the sun as it lowers in the sky, yet the chill of the night creeping in already.
Sometimes I feel like summer’s rushed past without me being able to get my fill of it. Then I realize that maybe I just didn’t slow down enough to enjoy it fully. (well, it DID rush past — the last 7 months of snow make the 4 of warmth seem way too short!)
So I’m trying to spend a little more time outdoors while we still have September’s warm days. Spending less time cleaning the inside of the house, and more time cleaning up the yard in the evenings with Jerry (old farmsites have LOADS of junk hidden everywhere!), watering and pampering and loving my tomatoes in hopes of making 5 plants produce like Dad’s 170 plants! Chopping wood. Going for rides in The Beast to humor my husband. (Ah, yes, The Beast. I’ll have to post pictures of it for you all sometime!) Going for slow walks at work. Bike rides at home with Elianna and the dogs. Lying on the trampoline while Elianna jumps. Trying to store up every last minute of summer before the winter comes!
I’m not a heat-lover, but I do love sunshine and blue skies. It can make a miserable day into a happier one, or a perk me up on a draggy, tired, headachy day.
It was starting to get quite chilly ad grey and rainy, but now the sun has come out again. I’m happy that we have a few more days of summer and sunshine before fall comes.
These pictures are from an summer evening we spent outside on the grass, soaking up the sunshine and green of summer while trying to get some nice pictures of Elianna and the puppies.
“Whoever said money can’t buy happiness forgot about puppies” ~ Mikey’s Funnies
Sunday’s special moment was when Elianna wanted to go up and sit with the kids on the stage steps at church during childrens’ corner. Last time she went up she was rather a bad influence on the kids around her! So today I told her she could go up and sit by her friend, but she had to be QUIET, and keep her hands folded The. Whole. Time.
And she did! The folded hands stayed out of trouble the entire time! Whooohooo, she’s actually learning something!
Some days it seems like I may as well be talking to the wind. Other days I repeat things so many times I wish I could just record myself and hit “play” every time the same instruction was needed.
But then there’s days when I’m not feeling well and I’m lying on the couch and she brings me a blanket and “tucks” me in, and pats my head and kisses my cheek and sits beside me to sing me a “lub-a-by” and asks, “Mommy, you okay??” And I think that maybe, just maybe, I AM doing something right after all and she IS learning in spite of the days when it all seems impossibly hopeless!
I’m thankful for my little two year old!
I’ve pretty much stopped blogging, these last few years. Mostly because life got a lot easier when I finally finished Bible school out east. I didn’t need to make a conscious decision to “Choose Joy” anymore, because it came much easier. I wasn’t homesick anymore. I was starting a new life with my man, and loving it. We were [FINALLY!] together. No more long-distance torture. No more aching heart.
Then I got pregnant and super-sick and kind of stopped living for a while.
Then we had a little girl who screamed a LOT and life was a blur.
Life is still a blur, but now I have a two year old. She doesn’t scream herself to sleep anymore (I am SO thankful that is done!) but she does find many other reasons to scream. Apparently little ones have a sin nature! Who knew?! Apparently their parents have a sin nature too, because there are a lot of days * I * feel like screaming!
And as I read this post by a friend the other day, I suddenly realized that I’ve lost perspective. The strong will of my two year old firecracker, the tiredness, the stresses at work, the everyday trials of life, the extraordinary trials of life that always come — they are looming up and I am allowing them to too much time and space.
By focusing on those things, I’m missing out on the joy that our little firecracker brings. I’m missing the happy fact that Jerry found more of my caffeine gum, which means I CAN be tired and still survive the day, with its help. I’m missing the simple pleasure of just BEING there for the elderly people at work. Someday, I want someone to genuinely care about me, when I’m that old and fragile. Today, I can be that person to make their day brighter.
Sometimes I need to just stop. And just breathe. And look around for the good. For the little things that make life special. For the little blessings God sends each day.
Blessings like puppies, which people are willing pay money for, which in turn pays for another block of school for Jerry! And the blessing of springtime puppies, which meant Elianna could spend hours outside loving on them!
Two little girls.
So much love.
So much heartache.
So much hope.
So much miracle.
Janessa Zofeya — “God sees, and is merciful”
I am thankful God allowed these two little ones to meet.
We pray for many more days of love and laughter ahead for them.
We pray for God’s strength to face whatever comes in the journey ahead.
The house is quiet, and I had words coming into my mind as I was cooking supper, so I’ll quickly write a bit before they leave!
Elianna’s having a short nap. She slept in today and was an absolute ANGEL the rest of the day. (Maybe she’s in competition with that angel teetering atop of our tree?!)
I made a tent for her under my computer desk and she spent HOURS today playing in it, calling it her house. The last time she was this contented with something was waaaay back in the jolly jumper days!
Jerry’s gone to town for milk and parts for the pump that runs the aerator in our dugout. It died a couple weeks ago, and by the time we came home after Christmas it smelled like someONE had died in our dugout! Last night he hooked up the new one, trudged out back in the brutally cold weather, and connected it and by this morning already there was a big difference in the smell of the water! So today I am VERY thankful for the blessing of running water, and water that usually smells pretty decent.
There is a ham baking in the oven with honey-mustard sauce dripping down over it. Carrots swimming in the water at the bottom. I LOVE carrots that have been cooked with ham, or in chicken-potatoes-carrots dish (Dad’s specialty). Today’s been a lovely laid-back, relaxing day. Jerry fixed the water cooler and it’s not leaking anymore. Hallelujah!!!!! I have missed having always-cold water at my fingertips. And I will be so happy to have my counter space back and get rid of the great big jug of water at my sink! The seal broke way back in …. August, I think? Jerry tried to order a new one, but the cost of shipping would have been atrocious. So then we took a load of stuff to the dump a while back he poked around in the broken water coolers section and found a seal that matched ours! Yay!
Our smaller-than-normal tree is up and half decorated. I think we’ll skip the balls and trinket decorations this year and stick with lights and garland. It’s pretty even now, and I’d prefer not to hover over Elianna every time she’s near the tree!
The house is [relatively] clean after my rushed cleaning spree this morning. I can’t function properly when it’s chaos. And then I get grouchy. My husband doesn’t appreciate a grouchy wife J So I cleaned while he fixed and then we could both relax, with those taken care of. We played a marathon Train Game after that.
It’s been a lovely day, “our” Christmas. There’s Christmas with his family, Christmas with my family, Christmas with Mom’s side of the family, and then after all the craziness dies down, we take a day for “our” Christmas. Opening presents, reading to Elianna, playing games, relaxing, catching up…it’s soooo nice! It’s been an extra-special Christmas this year, teaching Elianna about what Christmas is really about. Reading her the Christmas story, singing her “Away in a Manger”, and hearing her talking to herself in her crib about “baby born…manger…Jesus!” It’s special to see it through her eyes.