The house is quiet…Elianna is napping, and so is hubby. I’m feeling quiet and contemplative. Thoughts of “at this time last year” come frequently. It’s been a crazy full year!
Elianna started off our year by being late. VERY late! Last Christmas I was super-pregnant, puking, close to the end of my rope, and NOT enjoying it! I remember sitting on the couch with Jerry in the light of our tree one evening after Christmas, crying because it felt so much like someone was missing. “Two” no longer felt complete. It was time to be Three and I was soooo ready! This year, I sat on the couch with Jerry in the light of our Christmas tree and cried again. This time because I was so happy to be holding our beloved baby girl on my lap. I felt complete, and so content and at peace. Our little family of three had a WONDERFUL Christmas together! Christmas is suddenly extra special when you see it through the wonder of a child’s eyes again. The lights, the tree, the wrapped presents… I love to watch Elianna and see her taking it all in and thinking and trying to figure it all out. Everything is still so new.
We started out this year in a new house, trying to unpack and settle in and get things organized and fixed up. Now, I have a light over my kitchen table that makes the room feel warm and cozy. I have light covers in the bathroom which make my choice of a bright teal/green/blue color a little less shocking. (slightly. But not a whole lot. But I still like it a lot!) Elianna has covers on the electrical outlets in her room (that’s a GOOD thing!) Jerry brought me home a pantry the other day, so the stacks of pails and tubs down the hallway are tucked away on shelves, and I even had extra space to unpack some of my china so we could set the table beautifully for our Christmas meal! Jerry put up a laundry shelf for me so I would actually be able to see the top of my washer and dryer again if I would just take 5 solid minutes to clean them off!) We still have an addition that looks like a tornado went through it, and paper trim on some walls in the kitchen, but you can’t do everything in one year, can you!?
We started last year with Jerry limping around gingerly, trying not to further injure his knee. He had a CT scan in June, surgery in August, and after 6 weeks time off was back to work again in September, doing harvest for my uncle. He tramped all over in the bush during hunting season, and is threatening to play hockey again in the New Year! We are grateful that he didn’t have to wait till next year for surgery, and that his knee is fine and he can live an active normal life again.
We started off the year with a wrinkled up baby whose hands and feet looked like she was 80 instead of 8 minutes old and 2 weeks late. Now she’s crawling, getting into everything, laughing, eating solid foods, and starting to walk and talk. She said “grandma” during our Christmas in SK, and completely melted Grandma’s heart, I think! She says mama and dada regularly and sometimes even graces the dog with a word. We’re thankful she said mama and dada before she said “Measha”! She is such a joy. Her smiles and laughs brighten our days and lift our spirits and melt our hearts and we are unbelievably thankful for her. God knew exactly what we needed — a little girl to be our ray of sunshine!
Jerry is ending this year with a new job — still an electrical apprentice, but getting much more hands on experience. I was very concerned about him switching jobs, because he had a FANTASTIC boss. But, God has once again provided another absolutely FANTASTIC boss! Jerry’s surgery, time off, and harvest work was an excellent transition to this new job, and we are thankful for God’s hand in events.
We started off this year dogless and catless. Then we were just dogless. So we got a free dog from ½ hr away…and totaled our car when going to pick it up! God provided another vehicle for us at the price we needed, and insurance came through enough to cover our costs and we were thankful. And now had a cat AND a dog. Then we were catless for a while, because the dog terrified the cat, so we gave the cat away. Then we got two more cats who knew what a dog was, so now we have 2 cats, and sometimes 2 or 3 dogs, depending on whether the stray dogs are hanging around!
We ended 2010 by coming home early after the New Years’ Eve service because I was sick of the “WHAT?! You’re STILL pregnant!?” and “Hey, have the baby on MY birthday, Jan ___!” and “Have you tried _____ to get the baby to come?!” comments. We tried going out for supper for my birthday, but it was a royal failure because every place in our quiet little town was closed – other than A&W, and that’s not a very romantic spot for a New Years’/Birthday supper! This year my husband took me out for lunch (much better plan!), we went to the Pastor’s house this evening for an impressive show of fireworks, visited for a while after, and then I came home to put Elianna to bed. She ended my year perfectly by falling asleep in my arms in the light of the Christmas tree. My unrockable-to-sleep baby. The one who hasn’t been rocked to sleep since May. The one who HAS to go scream in her crib before giving in to sleep. My non-cuddly baby.
The baby I longed for as 2010 ended was the baby sleeping in my arms as 2011 ended. Perfect!